Reflective, humane, and beautifully observed.
There are memoirs that recount achievement, and there are memoirs that illuminate the emotional history of an era. Shayne’s memoir does both with uncommon elegance. One might expect a Hollywood memoir full of glamorous anecdotes and executive triumphs (and there are certainly plenty, from Broadway beginnings to Shayne’s rise as President of Warner Television) but the book’s real power lies elsewhere: in its portrait of a young gay man coming of age in a world where desire could scarcely be named aloud.
Shayne writes with novelistic detail about 1940s Cape Cod, where he spends a lonely summer working in his grandmother’s chaotic tourist shop while struggling to understand himself. The emotional repression of the era emerges not through polemic, but through moments of awkwardness, secrecy, and yearning. “I like boys, too,” an older man finally tells him during a pivotal scene late in the summer. The line lands with quiet force because Shayne has spent pages showing how impossible such honesty once felt.
He is equally sharp in smaller moments. When the insecure teenage Alan asks his grandmother, “Am I good-looking?” she replies bluntly, “Your nose is too big.” In two lines, Shayne captures the fragile self-consciousness that would shape much of his early life. Later, in one of the memoir’s tenderest exchanges, Roger tells him, “You have to come to me.” The invitation feels as emotional as it does physical, a first step toward self-acceptance. In the end, the book becomes more than a story of longevity or Hollywood success; it is the story of surviving long enough to live openly, and of discovering that love, after all the secrecy and fear, can endure almost a century. A triumph.
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Rand-Smith LLC
Pub date February 10, 2026
ISBN 978-1950544622
Price $12.99 Kindle unlimited, $29.95 Hardcover